TO WANLENG:

WHY YOU SO SCARED TO PUT MY NAME HUH. JUST PUT IT BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG LAH. I DON'T CARE. AND I, RACHEL CHEE, ALSO DECLARE THAT I HATE YOU.

SAY LAH SAY LAH SAY LAH SAY LAH SAY SOME MORE LAH. SAY ALL YOU WANT. I THINK CAN PUT INTO ONE BOOK HOR. AS THICK AS DICTIONARY LEH.

YAH LAH, I FLIRT WITH HER LAH, EVERYTHING ME LAH. ALL MY FAULT LAH.
I SAID SHE IS SWEET ALSO MY FAULT LAH.
I MADE FRIENDS WITH HER WHEN YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ASKED ME TO ALSO MY FAULT.
I TALK TO HER WHEN YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ASKED ME TO ALSO MY FAULT.
I CLOSE TO HER ALSO MY FAULT.
YOU DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HER ALSO MY FAULT LAH.
YOU ARE BEING FORCED TO BE NICE TO ME, BE MY FRIEND WHEN I DON'T ACTUALLY TREAT YOU AS ONE ALSO MY FAULT LAH.

ALL, EVERYTHING, MY FAULT LAH.

I THINK SHE IS THE SWEETEST THING ON THE WHOLE WIDE UNIVERSE LAH.
I LIKE HER ALOT ALOT ALOT DAMN ALOT BUT DON'T DARE TELL HER CAUSE I SHY SHY LAH.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE TO SAY HER NAME CAUSE HER NAME DAMN NICE LAH.
I HOPE I CAN CALL HER AND TALK TO HER EVERYDAY EVERY SINGLE MINUTE EVERY SINGLE SECOND LAH.


And to another You. I don't like her anymore. Wo bu xi huan ta. I REPEAT MYSELF. I. DON'T. LIKE. HER. ANYMORE. WO. BU. XI. HUAN. TA. I AM DONE WITH HER, OVER. SO STOP THINKING I'M STILL NOT.




Rachel;
17:35

Saturday's training was hell. Me and Peiying got scolded, as usual. And were made to do shallow practise for like what seems forever. Our sweat could fill a pail.

This therefore lead to impulsive shopping. LOL. Went shopping with my family and spent $1000+ within the weekends. Unbelievable.

Got back all of my marks and now I'm thinking twice about taking double science. Damn. I. Don't. Want. To. Choose. Anything.

"We're alright. :) I'm still here. Still loving you. :)"
"I cannot imagine what would happen without you in my life."
"You're my addiction."

Those words are long gone. Into Rachel's History Book. I've did it. Finally. :D Good work, Rachel. :D

Rachel;
08:46

Whoosh. This week just flew past ever so quickly. I'm thinking of changing my blog url again. LOL. Till I have the time. Watch out!

Got back most of my results and well, quite okay. No comments.

Some teachers just don't have enough common sense to know that it is natural for a student to put commas in-between numbers to seperate them. And to make it CLEARER for HER to mark. What's with the "Oh, it didn't occur to me that you all will put." Didn't occur or just simply, lack of experience?

I just realised that it's gonna be the end of the year soon which means there will be one and a half month of not seeing the usual people around. I think I'll feel wierd. LOL.

Now after the exams, I find that I get tired realllllyy easy. I usually sleep at 10pm every night but since then, I can't tahan once it reaches 9.30pm. My goodness. Something's really wrong. But luckily just recently I have the habit of drying my hair after I bathe (Thanks to You.) otherwise I will just sleep on a soaking wet pillow every night.

Oh, I have training tomorrow. Damn it.

I'm gonna miss you like crazy.

Rachel;
20:15

I've been attending the modular workshops for these two days and both sucked. Boring to the core. I don't learn anything. I wasted my time. Damn.

Well, I got my Geography marks back. And luckily for me, I didn't fail. In fact, I just needed 1 more mark to get a B3. Lucky me.

I've got a HUGE mosquito bite on my nose. WHY OF ALL PLACES MUST BITE ME ON MY NOSEEEEEEEE. WALAOOOOOOOOOOO. >:(

Saw Dominica today outside school's bus stop. -__- She suddenly got down the bus and we just stared at each other in shock. LOL.

It has been a very loooooooooooooong time since I last replies my tags. LOL. I'm gonna do it now.

ET: Thanks. :) I've cheered up ALOT already! :D
Yirou: :) Thanks. <3
ET: HAHAHA. IT SURE DID. :)
heys gloria cheng was here: Hello, KR2! :D
Daryl: Yes. Just. All the way. HAHAHA.
liangwei: Yeah, sure thing. :) Jia you! :D
renee: -__- Not funny leh, Renee.
Eileen: Hello! :)
Melanie: YOU SHUT UP HUH YOU. ALWAYS COME KAJIAO ME LEH.

There are alot of extra tags but I think it's useless for me to reply cause they are not worth replying. Tags like Wanleng's. LOL.

You hang in there. Don't give up.

Rachel;
20:15

COMMON TESTS ARE OVER MAN. WOOHOO.

Rachel;
20:15

Can't help but to blog. Geography paper. MY GOD. On the spot, give me a gun, shoot my brain cells one by one. Just.

I studied so damn much trying to remember as much facts as possible and squeezing in as much information as possible and sacrificing TWO nights of sleep for this stupid 1 and 1/2 hrs paper and it turned out to be what I didn't bother or didn't thought would come out. Damn.

Shifting agriculture and wet rice plantation, they both look the same in a blur black and white picture, don't they? Can't blame myself. Picture's fault. 6 marks gone.

Couldn't memorise the WHOLE of the WORLD MAP. Can't blame myself. The world is just too big. 4 marks gone.

Didn't have enough time to complete the paper. Can't blame myself, I write this slow and time flies. 100 marks gone.

I FAIL GEOG.

Rachel;
20:15

Friday is the start of common tests and I am not ready yet. I doubt I will be offcially ready for any test anyway. LOL. I guess I won't be blogging till tests are over so this will be my parting post. :D

Zhiying's new slang again! Octopus = Octooopous! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

AND, AND, AND, SEAWEED IS THE BEST CREATION. :D

Found out some things which I think I shouldn't have found out. Suck.

For the record, I actually slept at 11pm yesterday on a school day. I usually sleep at 10 or earlier but somehow, I was still WIIIIIDELY awake when it was already 10.30pm. Wierd how I actually managed to stay up to STUDY.

So trying to get us to talk is called demanding. If this is so, I don't know what is it called when it's more than that.

Over with it? Yeah, half and still progressing. Good job, Rachel.

Till then.

Rachel;
09:05

OH YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! BLOGGER IS FINALLY ALRIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. :D IT HAS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I LAST HAD COLOURS ON MY POSTS. :D WOOHOOOOOOO! :DD

I accumulated one whole list of 50 SONGS and yesterday I chucked it into my wonderful yellow file. Today, I wanted to take it out but it was nowhere to be found. NO WHERE. IT WAS GONE. G. O . N . E. GONE. It dissolved into my file and it just disappeared. Like really DISAPPEARED. I can't believe my eyes. How can 2 big pieces of paper just disappear like that when I really, REALLY put it in my file? Amazing. Now, I have to break my head to try and remember all those song titles. Or I'll have to listen to the radio for forever.

Best of luck to me.

Rachel;
15:51

Over It - Katherine McPhee

I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games
I'm over you asking me
When you know
I'm not okay

You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin' me
I know
You're not alone

Oh
And that's why
Your eyes
I'm over it
Your smile
I'm over it
Realized
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over

Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
I'm so over it

I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Tryin' to drag me down
And fill me with self doubt

Oh
And that's why
Your world
I'm over it
So sure
I'm over it
I'm not your girl
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over

Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it
I'm so over it

Woo-oh-oh

Don't call
Don't come by
Ain't no use
Don't ask me why
You'll never change
There'll be no more
Cryin' in the rain

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-wo-wo

I'm so over it
Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it
I'm so over it

I'm so over it
Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it

Nice song there. And it helped me go through the recent heartbreak I had. Well, it has been 2 months since my heart was brokened and heartbreaks ain't that easy afterall. My old tactic of putting up a strong front didn't work this time. Sad to say. I tried a new way though. By crying all out on one day and then tell yourself that this will be the last day you are gonna shed tears because of that dumb heartbreak you've just gone through. It did work for the first time. But subsequently, I kept telling myself it's the last day and that last day never seem to come true. Ha.

Crying ain't gonna let you re-live those moments and it doesn't bring back the person you love ever so dearly too. So why cry? Well, don't ask me cause I don't know either.

All those promising words are said like free and they make you feel all sky-high whenever mentioned. I guess this is the reason why people wanna fall in love so much - To feel like you are on drugs though you've not actually taken them. I've been through that and to tell you the truth, I was feeling like the luckiest girl on earth and I didn't need anyone else besides that person I loved. I thought that was my forever and I thought it was gonna last. As I said, I THOUGHT. In the end, it ended so arubtly and my world turned black and white when that 2 words were mentioned. Though we agreed on it but still, I know it's gonna be hard.

That person said those same promising words and sounded quite anxious as to whether we'll be good friends after that break up. I was glad that we could still remain as close even after we broke up. But guess what, it turned out to be crap. I tried. I tried to pretend nothing happened and continued to try smiling and saying "Hello" like we used to before. But that person just wouldn't respond. I felt the distance then. Now I finally understand what does it mean by "So near yet so far".

Somtimes, I feel as though I've not tried hard enough. So I continued trying and trying. But time and time again, I've got my heart broken and my efforts gone down the drain. So I go home, feeling so helpless and pathetic all at the same time. And that feeling suck. To the core.

Those special moments kept replaying in my mind whenever I'm alone and I'm suprised that I still remember every single thing; the phonecalls, the messages and the meetings, so clearly like it happened yesterday. For the past times I've been through those heartbreaks, I've never felt this way before. Thinking about it, it's actually quite scary how it fills up my mind.

Missing someone THAT much is horrible. Especially when you can't even talk to that person and can only look at him or her from afar. Now, I can only remember how the person's back view looked like because it's always the back that I always get to see. The situation is made worse when that person is sick or injured and I can't even do anything cause that person doesn't even wanna talk to me or look at me in the eye. Where did the "We could be great friends." go? Poof! It suddenly disappeared. Gone. Nowhere to be found. Ha, crap isn't it?

Saying that you've forgotten is crap. Technically, no one can actually really erase everything from his or her mind completely, provided you suffer from a memory loss. It is whether you are able to accept the fact that you've just lost someone you love. And I haven't. Embarrassing? Super.

Ranting here ain't the way to solve the problem but at least I've said what I wanted to say. So I'll now go continue to try to accept the fact that I've just lost that one special person.

And I'll always love you.

Rachel;
11:48

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS ARE WOOHOOOOOO! :D Had a blast during Community Singing though I was the only enthusiastic one singing so loudly and dancing so wildly. LOL. Joyce only cheer! So dead. >:( But although I was the only one, I had a great time singing and shouting my heart out. :D

Thank God I didn't trip and fall while walking up the stage to receive the award. HA.

Had tatoos on my face and sadly, I was the only one who put it on. :( C'mon guyyyyysss! Don't so deaddddd! >:( Next year yes? Next year! :)

The parade was boring but the concert was fun. :) HOORAY TO THE PERFORMERS! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPOREEE! WOOOOHOOOOOOOO! :D

Till then.

Rachel;
16:49

School was awesome today cause, cause, cause, I saw eyecandyyyyyaaayyeeee! :D Actually come to think of it, everyday IS an awsome day cause eyecandy goes to school EVERYDAY! :D Woohoooo! :)

And new slang from Zhiying! Nice song = Niseshong. HAHAHHAHA.

My teeth are still aching since Friday. Damn.

Tomorrow's the Colour's Award ceremony and pray that I don't trip and fall while walking up or down the stage.

Thursday is National Day and Friday is Mummy's birthday!! :D

Thanks for telling me. At least now I won't feel heartache anymore. Bye, for good this time.

Rachel;
16:27

Just came back from dental. Red and black braces! :D Emo, emo colourrrrr. :) It looks kinda wierd but oh well, I put on already. LOL.

AND I MAY HAVE TO EXTRACT ANOTHER 2 MORE TEETH. DAMN. IT. WO BU YAOOOOO. :(

Weekends are here which mean common tests are coming which means holidays are coming which means......RACHEL'S GONNA PARTAAYEEEE! :D I will do ALOT of cathching up with everyone during the holidays though it's only a pathetic one week.

Hello, you there?

Rachel;
22:23

New slang by Nads! Cool + Cute = Kiul. HAHAHAH. Everyday, each one of us will have a new slang. :D

The rehearsal was dumb. Damn. Wasted my time.

And there's another one on Monday. DAMN IT.

HAIYAHHHH, CAN I DON'T GO PLEASEEEEEEE? >:(

Maths lessons are a complete waste of time cause the teacher talks to the whiteboard and has a serious attitude problem. A pity we got her for our final term. Dammit.

Dental appointment tomorrow and I'm planning to change the colours to purple and pink. :D

Rachel;
21:23

Rushed home because I thought I had tuition at 3 but in the end, false alarm. -__- Damn. I could have hung around more and waited for Eyecandy to appear. :D School today was oh, so boring. Nothing much except that Zhiying had a new slang of her own. The word "Video" becomes "Feeteo" AHAHAHAHAHA, IT WAS SUPER HILARIOUS WHEN SHE SAID THAT OUT OF A SUDDEN. HAHAHAHAH. JUST.

Just had a heart-to-heart talk with my Aunty. (No, not the one with cancer. Though I really do wish it was her. I miss her. Real badly. Realllll badly.) And it was great cause I never had the chance to have this kinda talk with her before. :)

Well, Hua Wen oral is tomorrow and I have no idea how to prepare the script. Damn it.

Oh and I woke up this morning with butt cramps ON THE LEFT SIDE AGAIN. -__- Why like that huh?

Screw Colours Award rehearsal tomorrow. Stay back till 6.30 just to rehearse? What's there to rehearse? Just walk up the stage, shake hands, smile the sweetest smile and get off the stage. Is it really THAT difficult? Not like we are supposed to walk in high heels or in gowns. -____-

Chinese paper tomorroowwwwwwww! My goodness. Just prepare. Just.

It has been ages since I replied my tags. So there.

Tag Replies!

Jia Xuan: LOL. You won't wanna know. >:D
Sharmos: HAHAHAHA. DON'T ASK ME MAN.
ET: LOL, random english pard! :)
Wanleng: You lor. -__-
Domninica: Wth. Lame lah you. -___- Make me so excited for nothing.
Daryl: Well, hello boyfriend. I don't think you know it but I'm your secret admirer too. LOL. JUST SHUT, DARYL YOW. HAHHAHA.
You said she's pretty. lol: Daryl yow, you better stop your nonsense. NOW I tell you first. HAHAHAHA. JUST.

Rachel;
16:32